i cant stand it any more

they think im purposely being sad.
purposely tring to upset them because im upset.
well im not i just need support.
but its not that they care.
she insults me, he left me, she doesnt care and blames me for it all.
i considered her a best friend, he caused my upsetting, and she was the only thing keeping me alive.
i want to end it to stop them saying this about me.
its not anything i can take any more.
so i need somebody to try and help.